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I LOVE Utah

Well, we made it safely after a 4 hour flight with a 3 year old needless to say we were both exhausted by the time we landed but we were both way excited to be here!
I brought Carter out here so he could spend sometime with our family and also give Apes a few days off. :)
The first night we got in pretty late so we didnt do anything but go to wal mart and get some food. But the next day we woke up at 530 and by 7 we were on the road starting a 5 hour drive towards st george to take care of alot of things for my mom. The whole day was spent driving around dropping her off one place to the next. I felt so bad for my mom, as soon as we got into st george her anxiety level went through the roof :( she is going through a pretty hard divorce and the first stop in town was to go to the court house to file...I wish I could do more for her but I know just being there with her was a big help. She didnt want to stay so we were rushing from one place to the next trying to get out of town as quickly as possible.
I was able to see my nieces Faliesha and Jordan, Felsh brought her babes Kopeland :) It was so great being able to hang out with Felsh the whole day, it was the most time we had gotten to spend together in YEARS!!! I miss her so much and her little 5 month prego belly was sooo cute! I cant wait to meet my lil Olivia when she gets here! :D
(unfortunatly I dont have a camera so most my fun times were not captured :( which makes me way sad)
But we stopped by Daynas school/work and suprised her! :D It was soo good to see her too, I seriously have missed my fam and friends soo much!
Later I got to meet up with the beautiful ShaeLee!!! :D I hadnt seen her since my wedding last year so it was great to see her we met up at Cold Stone which was just like old times since she used to work there in high school :D haha it was great!
Oh ya and Felsh and I HAD to stop at Jimmy Johns!!!! That is one of my MOST FAVORITE places to eat ever!!!
After all the running around we got to hang out at my moms house for a bit with the whole family, but my mom really wanted to get going and by this time it was already 7pm I was super sad I didnt get to see my grandparents :( I miss them so so so much!

Yesterday my mom and I got to spend the day at the mall in Orem where we met up with my friend Jewels and her amazingly beautiful babies! :D Then Ambi and Avaya showed up!!!! And that was sooo much fun to see them!!! Later Lizzie Lou showed up! Man I miss her too!! I seriously love my friends so much and I am so so happy we have been able to maintain our friendships with all the crazy moves Ive made in my life :P

I had asked Ambi to fix my hair since I cut it myself I knew I had probably messed it up pretty good haha but she actually didnt have to cut much and it amazed me that just by placing the hair differently, how much better it looked! haha its amazing what professionals can teach you. :)
here are some pics from our hair day, she dyed Lizs hair a darker brown, and actually dyed her hair too but we had to leave before I got to see her after she was done.
Not sure what the adventures will be for the day but I will keep ya posted! :D

The Key to Life is Balance

I came across this picture this morning and just thought it was pretty interesting,
I am sure we all feel this way sometimes...like we are all balancing on a small ball not knowing when we are going to fall off or the ball is going to POP
Life has been pretty interesting lately, seems like there has been trial after trail going on, so this morning I decided to start my day out differently, I came to the computer and started to listen so some of the LDS articles I have downloaded on my computer. One of them is by from John Bytheway, "The Best Three Hours of the Week"
Lately some of my challenges have come from church, I love going and I love listening to things others have to say when I get there, but my challenge has been one of my callings, I was chosen to be the Sunbeams Teacher, I was really excited in the begining, I had helped my best friend teach her Sunbeams class when I lived with her in CA, its not that the class is even that bad...I do have their attention sometimes but most the time I leave church frustrated and annoyed at myself wondering, "what did they take away from my lesson today?" and most the time I wonder if they really did get anything from it at all..
I feel inadaquet and unprepared for this calling, even if I do spend time durring the week planning and preparing for the lesson. I told Nate, the longer I teach the Sunbeams, the longer it will be before I want to have kids of out own. Lol.
I know your own children are different than watching everyone elses kids, but still, its been a major eye opener to how unprepared I really am when it comes to children.

Other challenges in life have been some family issues. I have been so homesick, I miss my family so so much, I do not like being so far away from them, I am the youngest of 5 kids and all of my family have grown up so close to one another, so to be thousands of miles away from them, not being able to just be there for them durring their trials kills me.
My mom has been going through a difficult divorce for several months now and its still not final, they have been on a rollercoaster of deciding to go or to stay...
My oldest sis lost her job, my other sis has been close to me- living in TN and I am so so grateful for her being so close to me although I do wish we could see each other more. I know she is struggling being a single mother of two, and I really wish I could help her out more...
Other struggles come from work and just every day life in general.
I keep waiting for my rainbow to appear out of these storm clouds above my head..

I am fortunate enough to be able to go to Utah next week and I really can not wait, I get to spend time with my mother which I need more than anything, I am such a mamas girl and the last time I saw her was last Christmas!!! This is the LONGEST I have ever been away from her so I really cant wait to spend time with her.

Anyway, I know this post has been kind of a venting post...but I just needed to get things off my mind and into words so they will hopefully be lifted off my shoulders a little bit. I am so grateful for the gospel, out of all the things that have been going on with me, the one thing I know I always have prayer and the scriptures to get me through all struggles that come my way.